RDP Prompt: eXpress
” Christmas Eve ‘
Carl von Marr
Every year I try to find a way to make The Christmas Holidays an adventure instead of a chore.
I love the music, I love cold, I love it that it gets dark early and that it’s a thing to buy your dogs presents and I have a granddaughter to spoil. But the truth is, when it comes to the Winter Holidays I always feel like an uninvited guest to a fancy party where I have worn the wrong clothes.
Halloween is easy- I start in on that during the Summer and I don’t stop until the first of November. I know what to do, I know how to act and I can’t really make any mistakes when it comes to knowing where to go and even what to wear.
I guess I’m looking for a way to express myself during a time of the year that sort of scares me.
I have put up my tree and I’ve been listening to Christmas music. I’m even planning a fun Christmas Day with my family- and this year I’m happy about it.
I suppose that means I’m off to a good start- at least it feels that way.
Holidailies Prompt: Describe your best or worst memory from this past year.
Back in November a woman died on the railroad tracks near my warehouse.
The initial news-reports were not correct.
I was working at my desk when I heard a train breaking hard- hard enough that I noticed it- after years and years of working in the warehouse I don’t really heard the trains anymore.
I put it out of my mind and finished my work.
When I went to catch my train I saw people streaming up from the train platform so I knew there was a problem.
So this is what happened- a woman jumped or fell from the bridge above the tracks- which is really a street and a sidewalk- and just as she did a freight train came from the tunnel under the bridge and she landed on top the Engine car and died.
The place where she was reported as being hit is where the train stopped.
There wasn’t any followup so the news story was not corrected. I hated that. It’s like her tragedy didn’t matter- and it did. She did matter.
On my train ride home that night I remember people being more quiet then usual- and by that I mean when someone is hit by a train on the ride home after the incident people are animated and they talk really loud.
It’s a reaction to death- like if you talk loud enough death will stay away from you.
This time someone said, ” the holidays do that to some people.”
I’m pretty sure they meant the death that had just taken place behind us a few hours before.
I’m not sure how I feel about the holidays this year, but I think I’d rather think of it as something to look forward too instead of fearing.
Can you believe it? I have had to take some down time from writing because my day job’s responsibilities were expanded.
So after 20 plus years I have to learn stuff that had nothing to do with my department.
To be honest, it’s a relief to do something new- plus I get to be a desk jockey now- which is something I have never done before, but I did want to focus on learning an entire system and a new way of looking at the same stuff.
But now that I am ‘getting it’ I can go back to doing what I love best.
And how did your month go?
“What good is the warmth of summer, without the cold of winter to give it sweetness.”
― Travels with Charley: In Search of America