RDP Tuesday: Extrovert!
When I was growing up I was a pretty sassy, loud and outgoing kid.
I climbed trees, gave impromptu concerts and magic shows, I wanted to fly spaceships and I used to try to copy the dancers I saw on the ‘ Lawrence Welk Show ‘.
And then at one of my family’s Christmas parties one of my Dad’s relatives said that I looked and sound like a ‘screeching monkey ‘ when I opened my mouth and smiled. She also suggested I should keep my voice down and my ‘trap’ shut when I laughed
Merry Effing Christmas.
After that I hated to look into mirrors, I stopped smiling and I never, ever laughed out loud.
When I did I would slam my hand over my mouth and look down and I could feel the skin creep all over my body.
I couldn’t stand the sight of myself. Well into adulthood I didn’t hang up mirrors and I refused to be photographed.
I was grotesque and I was ashamed of my screechy monkey face and my screechy monkey voice.
And then I started to really learn about Chimps and I started to think
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There are worse things to you could be compared to then a Murder Monkey who doesn’t take guff from anyone. I realized that when I watched the Fall of The House of Usher On Netflix and Verna/Raven took the form of a Chimp.
In the final shot, Verna as the Chimp has just taken another Usher out of the world and when she looked into the camera and ‘smiled’ I have to say:
When I think back on being called a screeching monkey I probably shouldn’t have taken it so hard.
When a Chimp screams, when it’s in a rage, when it sits down and plans it’s next move, Chimps are a lot of things- but you shouldn’t underestimate them and you should probably refrain from sticking your face to close to theirs if you chose to mock them.
But if you want to, I hope I’m there.
Or maybe I will be.
