Surface of My Skin


Clean, pure, shiny

I always wanted to be a white girl

any white girl

because I thought they were all

better then me, prettier then me, sexier then me, smarter then me.

That’s what the pictures in the magazines said.


I still feel that way and when I catch those feelings bubbling to the

surface of my skin

I try to tell myself it will be okay

but  I know I am lying.

In my eyes, I will never be clean, pure, shiny- or white

like the goddesses in the magazines are.