Check This Box

Fandango’s One-Word Challenge: Catagory

 

Big boxes

little boxes

beds of marble

names carved in stone

How dignified ,how organzied, how neat.

 

We spend our lives striving to be unique and special

we roar, we  talk out of turn, we laugh to  loud

and forget to close our mouths when we are chewing

our food.

Sometimes we drive our cars to fast and yell at our dogs.

 

But in the end

we obediently  line up in neatly plotted rows

and allowed ourselves to be labeled with just a few simple words etched in granite that

disappear slowly

and in an orderly fashion  over time.

Janet Brooks on Broadway in Sleepy Hollow next to Dutch Reformed Church

Tea With Nan

RDP Thursday: Penumbra

Andrea Kowch ” Soiree”

I was taught

how to take my tea

how to start a conversation and end one too.

 

I was taught

table manners

how to speak clearly, to read at least one book a month

to be a lady even if

I never wore high heels or fancied up my hair

by my Great Grandmother

who I called Nan.

 

My Great Grandmother told me, at tea

her father died by drowning.

He slid off of an icy path, hit his head.

He never had a chance, she said, to fight death when it came.

Her eyes were as hard and flat as stones when she told me

her story.

 

I remember the edges of her mouth were turned down-

was it disgust? Anger? I don’t know.

I wouldn’t have dared to ask.

 

But that one moment

the story about that death

by drowning, when it was snowing

cast half shadows across every page I have ever written

Goodnight Darwin

Word of the Day Challenge: Sad

Darwin 2014 Photo A.M. Moscoso

My cat died on Tuesday.

His name was Darwin and he was going to be 18 years old this Summer.

Darwin came into our family when my sons were in highschool, he grew up with my dogs and his two littermates- Blitzer and Micey.

Blitzer and Micey and my dogs Domino and Cerbie went on before him.

My friend who  gave me those three little kittens died about 5 years ago.

Darwin was the last tie to the time when my family were in our youth.

His passing meant so much more then what it appeared to be on the surface.

Darwin used to walk with me and my dog Domino- who was suffering from heart failure at the end of her life.

He sat with her as she died.

Darwin sat with my cat Wolfgang as he passed away too.

Darwin sat with me on the days when I was told my Dad and then my cousin died.

He wasn’t an overly affectionate cat by nature. He wasn’t a cuddler. Darwin never jumped into your lap and asked for attention. He did have his  moments where he would pop up and ask for scritches  and loved to play with toys with us. But Darwin was very independent and we respected that.

But if he knew something was really wrong, he was there and he wouldn’t leave your side if he could feel your grief or fear.  He didn’t crawl into your lap. He didn’t meow or purr. He just sat there right next to you like one of those statutes of the Egyptian Cat Goddess Bastet.

He was watching over you, protecting you.

It really was comforting.

When I came home from work on Tuesday I could see that Darwin was getting ready to leave. So I wrapped him up in his favorite blanket and I opened the blinds on the window so that he could at least feel the Sun.

He was gone about 15 minutes later.

Photo A.M. Moscoso

I could tell you great stories about Darwin- like how he decided he was going to be a dog instead of a cat.

I learned about his plan when I started to notice he developed a horrible dry hacking cough. I took him to the vet fearing cancer. What else could it be?

The Vet listened to his chest and then shook his head. He didn’t hear anything, but maybe we should do Xrays. I was about to agree when a dog walked by the exam room and Darwin jumped up on the ledge where there was a little window overlooking the hallway and he started…to cough and cough and cough.

The Vet said to me, ” You know. I won’t charge you for this visit because I don’t have the heart to bill you for the pleasure of watching Darwin bark.”

Darwin used to be right in the middle of the Welcome committee when I came home from work- there were two big dogs, assorted kids asking for either my car keys or money and in the middle of that giant overwhelming crowd was Darwin- who only ever got to be a little more then half the size of his brothers and had short legs, a short tail and a round head and he never weighed more then 6 pounds.

He kept his footing, he would not be moved. He pushed his way to the front of that pack- and barked too and demanded attention too.

I am sad, broken hearted. My home seems so much bigger and emptier now that Darwin isn’t in it.

Above that all though is the one thing that brings me joy and overshadows that grief.

I was lucky to have had that wonderful Soul in my life and that warms my heart.

Darwin and Domino
Photo A.M. Moscoso

Saturn Knows

RDP Wednesday: Lighting

I’ve seen lighting storms in cemeteries.

I’ve been caught in storms, all alone out in the middle of nowhere and I at those times I really did feel like a monster was after me.

It was the roaring and the flash that made me think of monsters- if you’ve never had the experience of taking a few hard blows to the head then you wouldn’t know what it’s like when you see that flash and you find yourself between consciousness and  unconsciousness.

It’s pretty scary.

On one hand, being in those storms was a once in a lifetime thing but not one I’d chose to have. I was there when it happened.

But then again, I can’t imagine what it would be like to be floating through the sky on Saturn and be caught in a lighting storm.

To be honest though, I wouldn’t mind finding out.

NASA.GOV-LIGHTNING ON SATURN

NASA.GOV STORM ON SATURN